WARNING! THIS BLOG IS NOT OVERLY COMPLIMENTARY: Young Achievers and Wonder World...

So I think I am going to start with a bit of complaining and then move on to the more fun stuff.... I think I will start with the Young Achievers Awards 2010.....last year I attended as I did this year as well and whilst I have respect for what is trying to be done I have to say that the second edition was a complete and utter disappointment.  To begin with, unlike last year their seemed to be a serious lack of importance given to the actual nominees.  As I sit in the back bleachers with two of them, I find it completely off key that firstly we have pay for drinks etc, whilst the VIP guests sit comfortably with their complementary drinks and such .....I hate to state the obvious but are the nominees not the whole reason we are all gathered here? I’m just sayin.....But really this is a massively disappointing change from last year where the Young Achievers themselves where in fact treated as ‘Achievers’ not the accompaniments to corporate and political face’s who claim to be ‘celebrating’ the achievements of young Ugandans.....more it seems like they are simply using the event to make themselves seem youth conscious.....There is a certain rapper who is trying to tap into the same ‘market’....but I don’t think we need to talk about him....Do you want another rap? Enough said......

I mean in all honesty I am really rather confused about the situation....We get told at the start that there is more funding for the event....only to be met with hard seats and well quite a boring programme, I can honestly say that had I not had to wait for certain categories I would have followed the flood of people who all left about 20seconds after H.E.Sevo!  But for those of you who don’t know, or have not attended let me give you a bit of background on last year’s ceremony.  Guests were greeted and seated and then treated to a simple but to the point ceremony which included a beautiful dinner.  The entertainment was bland....and that was improved this year so I will have to give it some credit (although the sound was a bit off as was some lip-syncing).  Last year there was a sense that all the guests, from the cooperate to the Achievers, and their guests were all as important as each other, they were all contributing factors to the night and we were all  treated equally...which didn’t seem to be the case this year.  I cannot be lead to believe that it is coincidence that certain people and nominees were placed in ‘V.I.P’ when they were not even ranking in the top 5 of their categories and I am not hating on them as they realistically did not pick their seats but there was something very disappointing about watching nominees squeeze their way from the back bleachers to the stage while others who are here to celebrate them sit in comfort.....It all seems a bit messed up to me....

Also I just want it to be known that it was noticed that the Journalism, Art and Fashion and Entertainment categories were moved to the end, you know after the President had left the building and then rushed through like they needed to be over with as soon as possible....yeah thanks for showing the arts....or people with actual self expression not spoon fed to them by the education system....some recognition for their work....at least we can see how the arts and creativity  are ranked in importance!

So what is my message to the Young Achievers Awards? You had a good thing going last year, and if this year you got more funding and yet the treatment and standards of the ceremony went down (at least the treatment of the nominees anyway) the question needs to be asked....’Where is all the Money?’ I’m not saying your corrupt....I’m just saying....maybe if you knew where it was....you could collect it together....save it up....and maybe next year  treat your nominees with the respect, acknowledgement and sense of importance which you did last year instead of saving it only for those who are already established and ‘elite’....I won’t say anything about the actual V.I.P guests....only that they gave H.E.Sevo a Very listening and attentive ear....almost like they were all supporters....

But please don’t get me wrong I do think that the Young Achievers Awards stand for something good! I think that it is really good that they have set up this Award system which celebrates the Achievements of the Youth.....

Ok Enough of that!!!!! And on to some more positive things! So this Saturday I took the Ship Crew from the Bavubuka All Starz out to Wonder World for the day.  The day itself was sponsored by firstly a friend of mine who sponsors one the crew Medi A.K.A Mc Ship and me as a kind of Xmas present.  The day was really really really really FUN! I took Imogen with me and it was fun to see her get on rides for the first time and have fun with me in the bumper cars.  But what was more fun....and more the point of the outing was to allow the kids to have KIDDY fun.... In the world, and the country we live in it seems that the youth have to grow up so fast.  They have to use their initiative to make or create toys and they rarely get to enjoy the ‘luxuries’ of swimming pools or games and rides.  And so I just wanted to have one day where my friends could experience the things that I, having grown up in London and having the means, have always taken for granted....things like Bumper Cars at fairs, the Rocking boat thing (the one with the pirates that always makes you feel like you left your tummy in the air), the ferris wheel and the best thing.... WATER SLIDES!!!  And these are no ordinary kids, they MC constantly and have a policy of speaking out for those who cannot speak for themselves....they are constantly using their voices, words and actions to combat heavy social issues....and so I thought.....what do you give these prolific children for Xmas....how about a tiny taste on my childhood....real kiddie fun.....And that is what we did!

This last bit  may not have been as long as my beginning rant....but to connect the two...ish....I really hope the organizers of the Young Achievers Award look into their functionality (and maybe find the answer somewhere in the rumoured 300Mil given to them), and look at who they are actually serving....is it the sponsors and the ‘elite’ of Uganda or is it the people who they are claiming to be giving recognition? Because what they are doing in Theory is good and I having spent the day with some brilliant young people cannot wait for them to get older, excel in their chosen fields and potentially get the recognition and appreciation that was shown in last year’s Young Achievers Awards.

It's all about me.....well and you too....

What is the truth about beauty? Does it grow in our own minds or is it nurtured and formed in the minds of those who look t us, in men, women, in magazines and on television?  To be honest it is probably a question bigger and more complex than what I currently have to offer you.  All I have to offer in this blog is just one of my many opinions on the matter.  Yesterday I found myself in what I can only describe as a True State of Beauty.  And so I felt it only relevant too share it....and hope that other people can relate, and not just think I am some kind of crazy.....

It started when I woke up, felt fresh sheets under my skin and a voice in my mind whispering sweet words of compliment. And for the first time in a long time I believed what that voice was saying, without question or hesitation....yes I would look good in ‘that’ underwear, and yes today was the day to wear those skinny’s I had been waiting to feel confident in....No I didn’t want to wear anything totally out of the ordinary, but yes I was feeling every inch of what I was in.  I didn’t brush my hair, my curls were perfect.....eyeliner....mascara not for any reason other than to enhance what I felt was in need of some attention....and then I thought you know what....I need to take a photograph of me....in this moment ....in this one, unique moment where from start to finish I have not had a single thought about anything or anyone except for my own perception of MY BEAUTY.  My hips, my thighs, my lips and my eyes, all of them having had special attention paid to them.  From looking at myself in my underwear in complete comfort and confidence to almost feeling saddened with every item of clothing I put on....only to then get another wave of confidence as the ensemble was getting nearer to completion.

OK so I might be sounding and looking really random and a bit full of myself right now....but my point is this....I began to thin ‘when was the last time I actually dressed solely for me?’....without the element of consideration on the eyes that would find themselves gazing in my direction? Not for the conservativeness of meetings, or the acknowledgment from the man in my life.....or even for the saintliness of my father! When was the last time I dressed for me....feeling truly beautiful from the top of my head to the tips of my toes? And you know I couldn’t pin point it....Because quite frankly I rarely do it! Please, don’t get me wrong I am not the kind of woman who is constantly thinking about my body image or what I have to wear for people but I cannot deny the truth which is that as I look at myself in the mirror every morning before I go out, I not only give myself a ‘thumbs up’ from me....but also from the people I may potentially meet in my day.

Wait.....

am I  rambling a bit....

back to the point I was getting back to....

which was the pictures.....

Yes....

I decided that in order to celebrate this feeling naturally I should photograph it! Out comes the tripod....Set up camera.....put on auto timer and think you know what! I deserve a soft box or light as much as the next person! So out it comes.....fully set up and ready to go! Snap! Snap! And I am out the door! But why? Well part of it was in fact to see if I actually looked as ‘hot’ as I felt but also and more importantly because I want to capture this moment of me! The best way I know how.....with my camera....I wanted to remember my moment of true beauty so that the next time I am feeling shaken I can present myself with Proof of this moment..... Because it is hard sometimes to feel beautiful without justification or affirmation from others....

Plus....In my opinion beauty is connected to how we feel.....we have the same nose we had yesterday, the same lips, the same hips, the same tummy.....but each day it is the mind which tells us what to pick on....what not to love and what to accentuate or dumb down.....so for one day I wanted to remember that I was utterly and completely perfect....my hips were big enough....my stomach flat enough, my eyes big enough and my lips lush enough..... So homework....and this goes to the boys as well because I have a sneaky suspicion you feel like this sometimes too....Take a minute.....look at yourself and love yourself completely...because as the world is turning we are expecting too much from other people by way of affirmation of self....If you feeling it...and by ‘it’ I mean how you look and feel....take THAT picture....or draw or write....but try and capture it as a reminder!  I saw my baby girl today and I told her she was beautiful.....I saw my eyes in her eyes and I saw that there was nothing wrong with her having my nose on her face or my hair on her head....true beauty (or at least an element of it) is doing things for yourself....putting together the elements of what we were given to make ourselves happy and not the eyes we aim to please....

Ok sorry if that was a bit deep for some of you....but really try it....If anything because I can testify to how bloody good it felt to just love every element of me for a minute!

Till next time....be blessed!