It's all about me.....well and you too....

What is the truth about beauty? Does it grow in our own minds or is it nurtured and formed in the minds of those who look t us, in men, women, in magazines and on television?  To be honest it is probably a question bigger and more complex than what I currently have to offer you.  All I have to offer in this blog is just one of my many opinions on the matter.  Yesterday I found myself in what I can only describe as a True State of Beauty.  And so I felt it only relevant too share it....and hope that other people can relate, and not just think I am some kind of crazy.....

It started when I woke up, felt fresh sheets under my skin and a voice in my mind whispering sweet words of compliment. And for the first time in a long time I believed what that voice was saying, without question or hesitation....yes I would look good in ‘that’ underwear, and yes today was the day to wear those skinny’s I had been waiting to feel confident in....No I didn’t want to wear anything totally out of the ordinary, but yes I was feeling every inch of what I was in.  I didn’t brush my hair, my curls were perfect.....eyeliner....mascara not for any reason other than to enhance what I felt was in need of some attention....and then I thought you know what....I need to take a photograph of me....in this moment ....in this one, unique moment where from start to finish I have not had a single thought about anything or anyone except for my own perception of MY BEAUTY.  My hips, my thighs, my lips and my eyes, all of them having had special attention paid to them.  From looking at myself in my underwear in complete comfort and confidence to almost feeling saddened with every item of clothing I put on....only to then get another wave of confidence as the ensemble was getting nearer to completion.

OK so I might be sounding and looking really random and a bit full of myself right now....but my point is this....I began to thin ‘when was the last time I actually dressed solely for me?’....without the element of consideration on the eyes that would find themselves gazing in my direction? Not for the conservativeness of meetings, or the acknowledgment from the man in my life.....or even for the saintliness of my father! When was the last time I dressed for me....feeling truly beautiful from the top of my head to the tips of my toes? And you know I couldn’t pin point it....Because quite frankly I rarely do it! Please, don’t get me wrong I am not the kind of woman who is constantly thinking about my body image or what I have to wear for people but I cannot deny the truth which is that as I look at myself in the mirror every morning before I go out, I not only give myself a ‘thumbs up’ from me....but also from the people I may potentially meet in my day.

Wait.....

am I  rambling a bit....

back to the point I was getting back to....

which was the pictures.....

Yes....

I decided that in order to celebrate this feeling naturally I should photograph it! Out comes the tripod....Set up camera.....put on auto timer and think you know what! I deserve a soft box or light as much as the next person! So out it comes.....fully set up and ready to go! Snap! Snap! And I am out the door! But why? Well part of it was in fact to see if I actually looked as ‘hot’ as I felt but also and more importantly because I want to capture this moment of me! The best way I know how.....with my camera....I wanted to remember my moment of true beauty so that the next time I am feeling shaken I can present myself with Proof of this moment..... Because it is hard sometimes to feel beautiful without justification or affirmation from others....

Plus....In my opinion beauty is connected to how we feel.....we have the same nose we had yesterday, the same lips, the same hips, the same tummy.....but each day it is the mind which tells us what to pick on....what not to love and what to accentuate or dumb down.....so for one day I wanted to remember that I was utterly and completely perfect....my hips were big enough....my stomach flat enough, my eyes big enough and my lips lush enough..... So homework....and this goes to the boys as well because I have a sneaky suspicion you feel like this sometimes too....Take a minute.....look at yourself and love yourself completely...because as the world is turning we are expecting too much from other people by way of affirmation of self....If you feeling it...and by ‘it’ I mean how you look and feel....take THAT picture....or draw or write....but try and capture it as a reminder!  I saw my baby girl today and I told her she was beautiful.....I saw my eyes in her eyes and I saw that there was nothing wrong with her having my nose on her face or my hair on her head....true beauty (or at least an element of it) is doing things for yourself....putting together the elements of what we were given to make ourselves happy and not the eyes we aim to please....

Ok sorry if that was a bit deep for some of you....but really try it....If anything because I can testify to how bloody good it felt to just love every element of me for a minute!

Till next time....be blessed!